long time, no ninja!

hello all (:
it's been quite a while since i posted, i know.
i've been busy.
that's not really a lie, but it's a lame excuse.
i haven't been testing my blood sugar very much. i'm lucky if it's twice a day. that is a stupid, stupid idea.
my A1C is 11.8, which is up .2 from three months ago. i am steadily climbing higher and higher into the "you are killing yourself" levels.
i know i shouldn't be ignoring it like i am.
but it's hard to deal with diabetes on top of depression.
i'm working on it, though! i keep telling myself that. i keep reminding myself it takes a long time to get back to normal, and once you're there, you have to keep on top of it.
i'll get there. i have a lovely support system in my parents, my friends, and my doctors.
i owe a lot to victoria cumbow, too. i spent a night eating a practically carb-less dinner, talking diabetes, joking around, and learning about the DOC with her a few weeks ago, after a particularly bad endo visit. victoria, thank you. you got me into this blog thing, and therefore into this family that i'm slowly meeting.
i just started a new blog, called "every day jj", over on tumblr. i know a lot of you don't have tumblrs, but maybe this blog will benefit you -- you can view it even if you don't have your own account. it's at everydayjj.tumblr.com and it is about all my struggles -- depression, diabetes, the works. it's not just a diary of problems, though, it's a celebration of triumphs. i'll be posting at least once a day there, hopefully.
i think you DOC'ers, you online community crazies (and i say that with the utmost affection), will understand this blog better than some of my "real life" friends.
anyway, this has been sort of a rambling, scattered update. i just thought i'd drop a line to you, since you're always around for me (:
<3 jj
novolog ninja, OUT!